So I got the dreaded call this AM from the clinic and new what they were going to say before even picking up the phone. After all the letter that came with my 3 hour carb loading diet and fasting instructions stated that they would ONLY call if they had bad news. Yes I have gestational diabetes. So I've been referred to some education thing and they are supposed to take care of educating, getting my my equipment, etc. Was told they would be calling and to expect a class Wednesday evening...........which yes is tomorrow and we waited all day for someone to call and as expected NO phone call! My luck they will call tomorrow and say you have to be there tonight. Not a problem but uber annoying! As serious as everything and everyone makes this out to be you think they'd want to get things going right away!
So guess we will see what happens from here. The finger pricking will be bad enough but worse case scenario needing drugs, which mind you haven't been full tested or fully approved for pregnancy use, scares the crap out of me and as for insulin injections I don't think I could do it so pray it only needs to be done when Eric is here. Even then not sure I can handle it. I know it may be necessary and is for the baby but I don't do needles. Always have to close my eyes, turn my head and still feel like I'm going to keel over when I have blood drawn. Not from the amount of blood being drawn but the act of it being drawn, the needle, etc. So praying things can be kept under control with diet and exercise.
Everyone keeps saying relax, you'll be fine but that is a bunch of crap. You walk in the shoes I've been walking in for over a year now and then see how you feel. I was for the most part managing the stress/anxiety of this whole pregnancy pretty damn good until this whole GD thing. It was bad enough having to deal with the anxieties of something going wrong like they did last time and now this, which increases the odds of something going wrong. Even when things are monitored closely with or without the GD things can go wrong. Everything is fine one moment and then BAM! not the next. The online support boards have helped but there are also the stories that aren't so helpful. Reading the story of a mother who had all the monitoring under the sun, showing no sign of trouble, baby being fine during a NST and ultrasound one afternoon to be gone by the next morning doesn't help with being optimistic!
Good night!
