Friday, April 30, 2010

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Today is almost over! Yay but tomorrow will suck too!

So I got the dreaded call this AM from the clinic and new what they were going to say before even picking up the phone. After all the letter that came with my 3 hour carb loading diet and fasting instructions stated that they would ONLY call if they had bad news. Yes I have gestational diabetes. So I've been referred to some education thing and they are supposed to take care of educating, getting my my equipment, etc. Was told they would be calling and to expect a class Wednesday evening...........which yes is tomorrow and we waited all day for someone to call and as expected NO phone call! My luck they will call tomorrow and say you have to be there tonight. Not a problem but uber annoying! As serious as everything and everyone makes this out to be you think they'd want to get things going right away!
So guess we will see what happens from here. The finger pricking will be bad enough but worse case scenario needing drugs, which mind you haven't been full tested or fully approved for pregnancy use, scares the crap out of me and as for insulin injections I don't think I could do it so pray it only needs to be done when Eric is here. Even then not sure I can handle it. I know it may be necessary and is for the baby but I don't do needles. Always have to close my eyes, turn my head and still feel like I'm going to keel over when I have blood drawn. Not from the amount of blood being drawn but the act of it being drawn, the needle, etc. So praying things can be kept under control with diet and exercise.
Everyone keeps saying relax, you'll be fine but that is a bunch of crap. You walk in the shoes I've been walking in for over a year now and then see how you feel. I was for the most part managing the stress/anxiety of this whole pregnancy pretty damn good until this whole GD thing. It was bad enough having to deal with the anxieties of something going wrong like they did last time and now this, which increases the odds of something going wrong. Even when things are monitored closely with or without the GD things can go wrong. Everything is fine one moment and then BAM! not the next. The online support boards have helped but there are also the stories that aren't so helpful. Reading the story of a mother who had all the monitoring under the sun, showing no sign of trouble, baby being fine during a NST and ultrasound one afternoon to be gone by the next morning doesn't help with being optimistic!
Good night!

Thursday, April 22, 2010

Ordered my first fluff!

Well, figured today was the perfect day to take the plunge in to cloth diapering! Was planning on ordering a few accessories to begin with but due to really nasty problems, specifically at night time, I decided to try out a few of the one size grows with baby(8-35 pounds) AIO's and pocket diapers on Whisper. If she'll let me put them on her! Going to tell her they are special pretty night time diapers!
Even though we have a plan for newborn diapers already and hadn't planned on trying some others out in a trial pack where you can return what you don't like we decided it was worth trying a few right now at least for night time. Wish us luck! I think it will be a good change and at least we will be contributing less to the landfill!

Friday, April 9, 2010

4/9/2010 appointment

Just a quick update. Repeat ultrasound results are perfect as we expected! Heartrate today was at 147 and I'm measuring as I should. My weight gain is slowing down a bit but not too much. Thank God! Next appointment is May 5th.